Observation: People who laugh in theaters

I need to be more creative.

Yes, it’s my blog, but I really need to talk about things other than myself. 

Today I watched a free movie on campus (Hairspray! So good). It’s interesting because I think most of the people there were staff, given it was showing right after work.

This lady came in late, sat a few seats past me, and started laughing really loudly at every funny or semi-funny thing that happened. Yes, I should have been paying attention to the movie, but no one else was laughing. Literally, it was dead silent in the lecture hall of like 50-60 people.

I couldn’t figure out if I should laugh or not laugh. 

It’s cool that people are so open. What makes people not care what other people think? I’ve heard that part of it is age, that once you’re 30 you really just don’t care. It might be personality too. I’m introverted. Introverted people are more comfortable being alone or in close groups of friends, but not necessarily shy. Regardless, this lady was definitely very extroverted. 

My judgemental side wanted to clash with her, but the compassionate side said, “You’re just jealous, you know you want to laugh too.” 

I started letting out some giggles, and other people eventually chimed in. Thank goodness. I mean come on, I shouldn’t have to worry about if I should laugh or not when watching a fun movie!

The end.

loneliness

I think it’s the 45 degree weather, or that I don’t ever see my roommates, or…that when I really think about it, I still don’t have any close friends in the city.

I feel lonely.

More often than not, I love my me-time. I explore/jog around the park or to the beach, shop, watch movies, read, knit, attempt to draw, play video games, etc. I can keep myself occupied. But my mind wanders. Sometimes, when I really want to just talk to someone or pick up the phone, I feel like there’s no one I can call (edit: except my family, or people far far away). Then I get into this weird funk that everyone’s so distant but they’re all hanging out together and I get discouraged thinking I’ll never make good solid friendships again, like the ones I have from high school and college.

Of course, I’m sure some of this current lonely feeling stems from my current heartache. Actually, I thought I was done with it, but the wound kind of opened up again last week. Sigh!

I will find someone who deserves me, but until then I aim to fill up my life with more work, two classes, more speech writing/giving, and a lot of socializing. Possibly an internship too if I can squeeze it in. Not to mention I’m still trying to screenprint, finish a couple of scarves, and be a pro at the guitar by this Christmas. My family wants to make a band, haha.

Okay, this entry helped. Also, one of my longer term goals is to live in a warmer area *coughSoCalcough* again. Probably not this year, but, once I am further into the design field.

In the meantime…I just need to shut my brain off from all these wandering thoughts.